infinitive steps back

We all have a bucket list Right? we all have an infinite list of things we want to do but we never had the courage to. How many times have you seen someone do something so exciting, so unique, and you thought ‘wow, I want to do that someday!’ . Yet you never did My name is Cynthia, I understand, I’ve been in your shoes, I have millions, more like billions of things I wanted to do but I never went down that road. However, once ,I was sitting, alone, thinking. Suddenly, this terrible image came into my mind , I saw myself as a 60 years old woman, sitting in an empty room, tired , regretting the things I could’ve done when I was in my twenties or thirties. That’s when I came up with an idea and honestly? I think you should try it too.  Let’s all do something new every first day of every month. I’m not telling you to go get married, to have kids and build a family or get promoted. I mean, that’s impossible! Try something as simple as trying a new kind of coffee every first...

(Blogger personal post) Winter season is my favorite time of the year so I felt like posting this picture which I created on PicsArt application.  I hope when you read the picture below, you will find things you like, post them in the comment and let us all feel the importance of this season.  Greetings!

in a great war between two countries, the one with the biggest army is the one who's more likely to win. but when the fire starts, and the sounds of dying wishes fill up the air, you see the numbers slowly going down, till it finally hit rock bottom. you observe that scene to realize that hundreds of soldiers who don't know how to fight were vanished by only one hit of a true soldier. in life, never look for quantity, but for quality. because the lack of ability kills you slowly, but only one great hand can make you a king.

to the girl who will read this in the future, i hope you don't break and i hope you're still holding on to the things you promised yourself to do. dear future self, i hope you don't feel disappointed while reading this dear future self, please be stronger please be aware please be patient please be ambitious please be what your past self always wanted you to be dear future self, i hope you change for the better. dear present self, you have a lot of work to do.

there you go again. making the same mistakes, acting as if people can change back, and thinking that you can survive in this world of cruelty with a good heart. there you go again, giving chances and trying harder. But... this time, you're scared and bruised and in pain. this time, you don't care if they walk away again and you don't care if they stay. And that's what's so great about your chances. first try, you were thinking with your heart. second try, you thought with your mind. and third try, you thought with your pride and that why you walked... A Winner.

the smallest things count; good or bad. that blink you see when you know you're hurting her. that smile you know she's faking around you to make you believe she doesn't need you. the little steps she takes to be close to you again. someday you will regret losing her; someday you're going to stare at that picture and see that there's a face missing. someday you'll realize you tried to replace her with someone who helped you reach a temporary star, when all she ever did was fly you through an infinite galaxy

In kind of sucks, you know. You meet someone and you kind of hit it off, with sleepovers and long phone calls.  It’s like something was missing, that little piece of lost puzzle which you found in the eyes of that one best friend whom eventually becomes family.  And then one day, someone comes along, a guy with a very flirty taste and sense of humor, and swipes your person off her feet, and the next thing you know, you’re not a priority anymore.  You can forget about those sleepovers and those nights together, you can forget the times you sat together for hours talking about problems and being that shoulder she needed.  Because now, you’re her second base call. No more alone times together, no more talks, nothing… and you sit there wondering, is it you?  Is it something you’ve done wrong?  WELL NO!  It’s never you. But it’s just that cycle. It’s totally natural because some day she’s going to need someone and that replacem...

He had a sick mind and yet it didn't stop me. He was weird and yet I was attracted to him. I got to see a hidden part of him and he became a drug to my soul. I fell for his sick mind, and then fell for his sick heart. Then discovered his sickness was contagious and that it was too late.

Have you ever heard about once in a lifetime? It's that time you went on a trip to somewhere far away from home. That time you turned around and looked at your mother in the crowd crying for something you made her proud of. That time your dad looks at you, smiles and shakes his head because you've done something you'll be thankful for. That time you first went out with the boy you had a crush on. That time you closed your eyes and said to yourself 'it's either now or never'. Once in a lifetime is every time you decide to do something out of your comfort zone but turns out it was everything you have ever wished for.

in the lowest moments in life, any soul will ask 'what if i die?'  what if the world wouldn't have to encounter with my lack of happiness? what if i'm one less trouble to people? i have cried so many times in bathrooms, and yet once i decide to go out, i made sure that not even one single human being on this earth knows. i made sure to show the picture i want to people, maybe someday the picture i show will become truly me. this fake smile stuck on my mouth, repeating the words 'I'm fine, It's okay, Don't worry' again and again and again...but well...i'm not. i keep blaming my anxiety,and yet sometimes when i'm alone, i know that i'm the only one to blame. i prefer being alone, it is the only moment where i know i fit in.   i run away from being unhappy but it keeps finding its way back to me.  What if i die?  will you remember the words you slaughtered me with?  will you remember the fake rumors?  will you rem...

        When you meet a person for the very first time, you start fantasizing about how your life will change with them in it. You start creating images. Images you somehow had for a long time, but you never actually fixed them a face till that one person. You get your hopes high. So high that reality starts looking very small to you. You get to know that person. And suddenly you feel disappointed by him, you feel betrayed and lied on. You will erase the images, and you will hate them.  You will hate romantic dinners and matching rings,  you will hate those long rides and phone calls.  and the most important thing, you will hate him. But why? Please wake up. Please open your eyes on things. Please realize that the disappointment you get is not because of him. But it’s because of you. He didn’t do anything wrong, you just wanted him to be what he’s not. Don’t rush on things. There are a lot of beautiful imag...