infinitive steps back

in a great war between two countries, the one with the biggest army is the one who's more likely to win. but when the fire starts, and the sounds of dying wishes fill up the air, you see the numbers slowly going down, till it finally hit rock bottom. you observe that scene to realize that hundreds of soldiers who don't know how to fight were vanished by only one hit of a true soldier. in life, never look for quantity, but for quality. because the lack of ability kills you slowly, but only one great hand can make you a king.

to the girl who will read this in the future, i hope you don't break and i hope you're still holding on to the things you promised yourself to do. dear future self, i hope you don't feel disappointed while reading this dear future self, please be stronger please be aware please be patient please be ambitious please be what your past self always wanted you to be dear future self, i hope you change for the better. dear present self, you have a lot of work to do.

there you go again. making the same mistakes, acting as if people can change back, and thinking that you can survive in this world of cruelty with a good heart. there you go again, giving chances and trying harder. But... this time, you're scared and bruised and in pain. this time, you don't care if they walk away again and you don't care if they stay. And that's what's so great about your chances. first try, you were thinking with your heart. second try, you thought with your mind. and third try, you thought with your pride and that why you walked... A Winner.

the smallest things count; good or bad. that blink you see when you know you're hurting her. that smile you know she's faking around you to make you believe she doesn't need you. the little steps she takes to be close to you again. someday you will regret losing her; someday you're going to stare at that picture and see that there's a face missing. someday you'll realize you tried to replace her with someone who helped you reach a temporary star, when all she ever did was fly you through an infinite galaxy